I can't be what I'm not.

Some people are jocks. Some people are preps. Some people are sluts. Some people are popular. Some people are all of the above, or a combination of one or more.

Some people are nerds.

I am a nerd.

Nerds don't go to parties. Those other people do.

I'm not those other people. I don't do what they do.

After covering my basketball games (which put the evening at 7pm) I went to the library and got on the computer until it closed at 8. Then I went to a mexican restaurant and ate dinner. It was then 9 pm. I was led to believe the party was starting at 9:30 or 10 pm. I drove over to her house and parked in a nearby lot. I waited. I felt sick. I went to the university center, and looked in the mirror. I looked like a nerd. I went back to the parking lot, ended up circling the house five times and parking again each time.

The last attempt I actually got out of the car. Guys I was so scared my entire body was screaming for me to get back in the car where it was safe. I got in there and left, and tried not to turn my head to look at that apartment building and the people outside it as I passed it.

Two songs played in the car as I began that trip home. Joe Walsh's "Life's been good to me" and AC/DC's "Hell's Bell's." Those are two of my favorite songs, and they are never played on the radio.

Those were my mp3s, calling me home.

I had a good cry on the way home, but I'm here now, where I belong. With you guys, my geforce 4 and no one else.

To thine own self be true.

[PunkinDrublic]

So what happened nobody was at the party or you just couldn't bring yourself to go?

I could not bring myself to go.

Nerds have social lives. Nerds meet women. Nerds go to parties. Nerds get laid.

You need group therapy or something. You won't find THAT here.

I'm sorry you missed the party. Actually, it's still not too late. If a party starts at 9ish, people show up throughout the night unless it is a formal occassion celebrating something.

If it's just an informal party, you can arrive all the way up to 1:00 AM. I think you need to sack up and go. If you have the balls to pour your heart into posts on here every night in front of hundreds of people, you can go to a party with a few of your co-workers and fellow students. You were invited. You can't be as big a nerd as you believe.

When the boss invites you to a party, you go.

If you get drunk, and the girl gets drunk, your chances of getting laid increase by about 75%. It's be proven scientifically, or something.

It takes me an hour to drive over there. fuck that. I already wasted three fucking hours tonight and have shit to show for it. I could have been playing with my new video card tonight instead.

The worst part of this is I ran into our photographer at the game and I asked her when it started. She then asked me if I was coming and I said "maybe."

Originally posted by gochiefs
I could have been playing with my new video card tonight instead.

Speaking of wasting time.

[PunkinDrublic]

You're doing this to yourself. Just because you see yourself as a nerd doesn't mean everyone else will. How do you think people would act towards you if you would have went inside?

Originally posted by gochiefs
The worst part of this is I ran into our photographer at the game and I asked her when it started. She then asked me if I was coming and I said "maybe."

Well, if you don't show up, you're really screwed. It isn't like you're going to a party where you don't know anybody. Suck it up.

I don't know, but I would have felt extremely out of place and very stupid. I would have ended up bored and left after an agonizing hour of embarrassment.

It's very simple guys. I bet the people at the party never play with geforce 4's either. Someone has to.

[DaWolf]

Originally posted by pHoBiA


Well, if you don't show up, you're really screwed. It isn't like you're going to a party where you don't know anybody. Suck it up.

Why am I screwed?

Originally posted by DaWolf

DEAD on.

[2bikemike]

Dude you gotta lighten up on yourself. I don't know you other than what I read here. But I think you owe it to yourself to come out of your shell. Life will get mighty lonely for you if you don't.

I am not saying you gotta go score on some chick or anything like that. I think you first need to learn how to interact with them. Talk to them. I am not sure of the whole episode here. But I think you were invited to a party by some Girl you are attracted to. Do you have other friends that were going to the party?

Man the guys on here will be ruthless to you. I hope for your sake you have a thick skin.