I can't be what I'm not.

Some people are jocks. Some people are preps. Some people are sluts. Some people are popular. Some people are all of the above, or a combination of one or more.

Some people are nerds.

I am a nerd.

Nerds don't go to parties. Those other people do.

I'm not those other people. I don't do what they do.

After covering my basketball games (which put the evening at 7pm) I went to the library and got on the computer until it closed at 8. Then I went to a mexican restaurant and ate dinner. It was then 9 pm. I was led to believe the party was starting at 9:30 or 10 pm. I drove over to her house and parked in a nearby lot. I waited. I felt sick. I went to the university center, and looked in the mirror. I looked like a nerd. I went back to the parking lot, ended up circling the house five times and parking again each time.

The last attempt I actually got out of the car. Guys I was so scared my entire body was screaming for me to get back in the car where it was safe. I got in there and left, and tried not to turn my head to look at that apartment building and the people outside it as I passed it.

Two songs played in the car as I began that trip home. Joe Walsh's "Life's been good to me" and AC/DC's "Hell's Bell's." Those are two of my favorite songs, and they are never played on the radio.

Those were my mp3s, calling me home.

I had a good cry on the way home, but I'm here now, where I belong. With you guys, my geforce 4 and no one else.

To thine own self be true.

You know what else has contributed to f***ing me up? I used to be a Jehovah's Witness.

[2bikemike]

I would be willing to bet in todays day and age that you have something in common with 90% of young people today and you don't even realize it. Computers you are into computers right? Aren't most young adults your age? Video games are another area. Music? Do you like music? I wish you the best of luck in climbing out of your shell. You can't relive your life so now is the time to enjoy life. Don't let the fear of rejection stop you in your tracks. Why did they invite you to this party if they didn't think you belonged.

They invited everyone to the party.......

Again, if it was two blocks away I would probably go. But it's not.....

[PunkinDrublic]

You're only young once do you want to spend that time being agoraphopic (hope I spelled that right). You gotta learn to not care so much what others are going to think. Anyway I gotta go but I'm serious next time you get invited to a party send me a smoke signal we'll meet up and I'll go to the party with you. Worst case scenerio is you end up hanging out with someone who shares a common interest in the Chiefs and Chiefs planet.

[KcMizzou]

Man.. honestly... I think you're full of shit. I don't think meeting a girl is even on your list of priorities. I think you're an attention whore. You'd much rather have people on a web-site pandering to you than actually experience anything real. I'm bored with it.

[Jeremy Bulloch]

I know you don't have friends, gochiefs. May I call you gochiefs? Do you have a first name? Please call me Jeremy.

I used to be just like you until I went to a party. You'll do fine, chap. Your behaviour is not uncommon for youngsters such as yourself. I'd like for you to give yourself a little credit and move on to the next stage of your life.

Originally posted by KcMizzou
Man.. honestly... I think you're full of shit. I don't think meeting a girl is even on your list of priorities. I think you're an attention whore. You'd much rather have people on a web-site pandering to you than actually experience anything real. I'm bored with it.

You're wrong.

Originally posted by Jeremy Bulloch
I know you don't have friends, gochiefs. May I call you gochiefs? Do you have a first name? Please call me Jeremy.

I used to be just like you until I went to a party. You'll do fine, chap. Your behaviour is not uncommon for youngsters such as yourself. I'd like for you to give yourself a little credit and move on to the next stage of your life.

I highly doubt you are really the actor that played Boba Fett.

[KcMizzou]

Originally posted by gochiefs


You're wrong.

hope so

[2bikemike]

Dude I hope you take up Punkin Drublic on his offer. Nothing to lose there.

[htismaqe]

I have nowhere near the level of balls needed to do something like that.

That's why you need some "chemical augmentation"...

Originally posted by 2bikemike
Dude I hope you take up Punkin Drublic on his offer. Nothing to lose there.

I might.

[InvinciBill]

Originally posted by gochiefs


I highly doubt you are really the actor that played Boba Fett.

It was pretty funny. I think someone was trying to appeal to my nerd side. They must have thought I am incredibly stupid as well.

[htismaqe]

I highly doubt you are really the actor that played Boba Fett.

Wow.

He IS a nerd.