I can't be what I'm not.

Some people are jocks. Some people are preps. Some people are sluts. Some people are popular. Some people are all of the above, or a combination of one or more.

Some people are nerds.

I am a nerd.

Nerds don't go to parties. Those other people do.

I'm not those other people. I don't do what they do.

After covering my basketball games (which put the evening at 7pm) I went to the library and got on the computer until it closed at 8. Then I went to a mexican restaurant and ate dinner. It was then 9 pm. I was led to believe the party was starting at 9:30 or 10 pm. I drove over to her house and parked in a nearby lot. I waited. I felt sick. I went to the university center, and looked in the mirror. I looked like a nerd. I went back to the parking lot, ended up circling the house five times and parking again each time.

The last attempt I actually got out of the car. Guys I was so scared my entire body was screaming for me to get back in the car where it was safe. I got in there and left, and tried not to turn my head to look at that apartment building and the people outside it as I passed it.

Two songs played in the car as I began that trip home. Joe Walsh's "Life's been good to me" and AC/DC's "Hell's Bell's." Those are two of my favorite songs, and they are never played on the radio.

Those were my mp3s, calling me home.

I had a good cry on the way home, but I'm here now, where I belong. With you guys, my geforce 4 and no one else.

To thine own self be true.

Originally posted by gochiefs
I would have ended up bored and left after an agonizing hour of embarrassment.

That's about 100x better than driving up to the door and hanging out in the car by yourself. Go. Get out of here.

[CHIEF4EVER]

Holy mackerel dude. Unless you have a humpback or hair on your palms you need to go to this party and GET LAID. Look at it this way.....if "Slick Willie" Clinton can get his cigar smoked, you have to be a shoo in. Cmon dude, grab your nads and go bearded clam hunting.

ROBHONDA <---- Wishes he was a hundred years younger.

Yes I have thick skin don't worry. I'm just stupid.....I thought I could change...why should I change? I am what I am.

It's not like I'm a complete hermit. I enjoy going to the bar for Chiefs games more than anything else, and I know all the guys there. I know how to interact with women, I do it every day at work.

Originally posted by 2bikemike
I am not saying you gotta go score on some chick or anything like that. I think you first need to learn how to interact with them. Talk to them. I am not sure of the whole episode here. But I think you were invited to a party by some Girl you are attracted to.

That's EXACTLY what I had hoped would happen. Dude - you aren't going to score tonight, but you ARE going to gain a little confidence in your social capabilities.

[PunkinDrublic]

What's wrong with going up and saying hi to the people you know and introduce yourself to the people you don't know? Do you think you're the only one that might feel uncomfortable? As long as you don't act beligerant to people and be relatively polite people wouldn't see you as being a nerd.

Originally posted by pHoBiA


That's about 100x better than driving up to the door and hanging out in the car by yourself. Go. Get out of here.

No. I am where I should be. Where I have been every night for the past 11 years, for the most part.

BLUEGRASS MOUNTAIN MEDLEY!!! YEEEEEEEEEHAW!

Originally posted by pHoBiA


That's EXACTLY what I had hoped would happen. Dude - you aren't going to score tonight, but you ARE going to gain a little confidence in your social capabilities.

This isn't about scoring. This is about doing what I wanted to do, and I obviously didn't want to go to that party.

Originally posted by gochiefs
This isn't about scoring. This is about doing what I wanted to do, and I obviously didn't want to go to that party.

Stop lying to yourself. You WANTED to go. You just pussed out.

I wanted to go until I realized that I shouldn't go. I wasted three hours of my life tonight and I hate myself for it.

[2bikemike]

You seem so down on yourself that I can't believe this is what you want. If your interact with these people at work you can do it at a party. Just be yourself. Not all guys are suave and smooth. You don't have to be. Get it out of your mind that you have to be something your not. Just be yourself and have fun. The rest will come naturally.

What the fuck was I supposed to talk with them about? Certainly not work. Sitting around making small talk and drinking beer (which I wouldn't have done) is not my idea of a good time. Nor is dancing.

STAR TREK THEME! WOOOOHOOOO!

[PunkinDrublic]

gochiefs I live in Plano which is pretty close to Carrollton. If you want next time you get invited to one of these parties I'd be willing to go with you so you don't feel so awkward going by yourself. I could probably get you in a good position to score with this chick you like. I'm a pretty good wingman.

How old are you.

[2bikemike]

Just strike up a conversation and look for common ground. How do you know that you won't find someone at the party with the same interests. How well do you know these people? You come on this BB and tell us things about this party. Deep down I think you want the interaction with some of these people from the party but are just too shy and afraid to do it. You really seem to beat yourself up over it.

[PunkinDrublic]

I just turned 26.