I can't be what I'm not. - Page 14

01-18-2003, 11:05 PM

Some people are jocks. Some people are preps. Some people are sluts. Some people are popular. Some people are all of the above, or a combination of one or more.

Some people are nerds.

I am a nerd.

Nerds don't go to parties. Those other people do.

I'm not those other people. I don't do what they do.

After covering my basketball games (which put the evening at 7pm) I went to the library and got on the computer until it closed at 8. Then I went to a mexican restaurant and ate dinner. It was then 9 pm. I was led to believe the party was starting at 9:30 or 10 pm. I drove over to her house and parked in a nearby lot. I waited. I felt sick. I went to the university center, and looked in the mirror. I looked like a nerd. I went back to the parking lot, ended up circling the house five times and parking again each time.

The last attempt I actually got out of the car. Guys I was so scared my entire body was screaming for me to get back in the car where it was safe. I got in there and left, and tried not to turn my head to look at that apartment building and the people outside it as I passed it.

Two songs played in the car as I began that trip home. Joe Walsh's "Life's been good to me" and AC/DC's "Hell's Bell's." Those are two of my favorite songs, and they are never played on the radio.

Those were my mp3s, calling me home.

I had a good cry on the way home, but I'm here now, where I belong. With you guys, my geforce 4 and no one else.

To thine own self be true.

**KcMizzou** · 01-19-2003, 02:23 AM

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Originally posted by gochiefs
Guys I'm going to bed unless anyone wants to ask me anything...

g'night man... keep hangin' in there

Chiefs Pantalones · 01-19-2003, 02:23 AM

Just do it.

01-19-2003, 02:23 AM

K...I'm going to attempt to sleep this off.

GO TITANS!

Logical · 01-19-2003, 02:25 AM

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Originally posted by gochiefs
Guys I'm going to bed unless anyone wants to ask me anything...

OK I will ask you something. Are you really as pathetic as you are pretending to be?

If not what is the point of this, research for some article?

**wazu** · 01-19-2003, 02:26 AM

gochiefs -

My best friend has a similar problem to you. (Although a much more watered down version.)

He's 28 and a few months ago had his first real girlfriend. He's got no excuses either. There's nothing that wrong with him, but for some reason he just views himself as a goof and has a completely unreasonable fear of rejection when it comes to females.

I can remember in high school practically kicking his ass and ordering him to ask out the girl he took to the prom.

Anyway, I don't guess this has much relevance. I think the biggest thing is that people like my friend and you have no idea how much you sell yourselves short.

Trust me, somewhere out there is a guy twice as nerdy as you that is making friends, and going on dates.

**KcMizzou** · 01-19-2003, 02:26 AM

ah hell.... if ya ever wanna talk... look me up on yahoo... "brandon2674"... you'll be alright dude.... you wanna have fun... that's a start

**wazu** · 01-19-2003, 02:26 AM

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Originally posted by KcMizzou

man... four shots of jack would have the poor guy actin' like austin powers.... only not as attractive.

According to a previous thread, he claims to be a pretty big guy. I'm factoring in body weight.

Chiefs Pantalones · 01-19-2003, 02:29 AM

GC,

It's not hard. Get out of the freakin' car...and walk (this involves moving one leg infront of the other, and so on...) to the freakin' door and freakin' walk in.

Just...do...it.

Don't be afraid of anything. Don't think. Don't worry. Do it, and who cares what happens after that. Big risks=big rewards.

Good luck to ya, next time.

**KcMizzou** · 01-19-2003, 02:30 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by Logical

OK I will ask you something. Are you really as pathetic as you are pretending to be?

If not what is the point of this, research for some article?

exactly... how do you balance the two? On one hand... I think the guy is a fuckin' farce... who's havin' alot of fun with this.... but on the other.... maybe he's legit (?) and I don't wanna be a insensitive bastard.

You're logical heheh.... you tell me.

Logical · 01-19-2003, 02:30 AM

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Originally posted by Adam KC

According to a previous thread, he claims to be a pretty big guy. I'm factoring in body weight.

Even if that is the case and if it is like I said long ago I do have sympathy for him. He should go to a party like this and hang with the guys he knows and if a woman talks to him just talk back. Do not imagine she is hitting on him and throw fear into, women are humans as well and could just want to be a friend. It does happen.

**KcMizzou** · 01-19-2003, 02:32 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by Adam KC

According to a previous thread, he claims to be a pretty big guy. I'm factoring in body weight.

gotcha... he's portly... but not the "fat bastard" version of mike myers.... plus he's a light weight

Logical · 01-19-2003, 02:33 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by KcMizzou

exactly... how do you balance the two? On one hand... I think the guy is a fuckin' farce... who's havin' alot of fun with this.... but on the other.... maybe he's legit (?) and I don't wanna be a insensitive bastard.

You're logical heheh.... you tell me.

The advantage to being me on this BB is that to a certain extent people expect me to be harsh. I can ask the tough questions and usually people just think it is that same old arrogant SOB being himself.

You know Spock like unemotional, detached, just wants the answer.

**wazu** · 01-19-2003, 02:33 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by Logical

Even if that is the case and if it is like I said long ago I do have sympathy for him. He should go to a party like this and hang with the guys he knows and if a woman talks to him just talk back. Do not imagine she is hitting on him and throw fear into, women are humans as well and could just want to be a friend. It does happen.

I was only factoring in the body weight to measure how many shots of whiskey he should throw down before the party.

**KcMizzou** · 01-19-2003, 02:35 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by Logical

The advantage to being me on this BB is that to a certain extent people expect me to be harsh. I can ask the tough questions and usually people just think it is that same old arrogant SOB being himself.

You know Spock like unemotional, detached, just wants the answer.

cool... so wtf is the answer?

it's on you baby

Logical · 01-19-2003, 02:37 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by Adam KC

I was only factoring in the body weight to measure how many shots of whiskey he should throw down before the party.

Oops sorry, but if the guy did 10 whiskey shots in a row and did not pass out you can figure he doesn't weigh 150. 4 shots though would pretty much put a 350 pounder over the legal limit for driving.

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wazu ... Join Date: May 2002 Location: Kansas City, MO Casino cash: $212295 VARSITY	gochiefs - My best friend has a similar problem to you. (Although a much more watered down version.) He's 28 and a few months ago had his first real girlfriend. He's got no excuses either. There's nothing that wrong with him, but for some reason he just views himself as a goof and has a completely unreasonable fear of rejection when it comes to females. I can remember in high school practically kicking his ass and ordering him to ask out the girl he took to the prom. Anyway, I don't guess this has much relevance. I think the biggest thing is that people like my friend and you have no idea how much you sell yourselves short. Trust me, somewhere out there is a guy twice as nerdy as you that is making friends, and going on dates.
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01-19-2003, 02:29 AM	#203
Chiefs Pantalones GO CHIEFS!!!!!! Join Date: Feb 2001 Location: Kansas City Casino cash: $7418717	GC, It's not hard. Get out of the freakin' car...and walk (this involves moving one leg infront of the other, and so on...) to the freakin' door and freakin' walk in. Just...do...it. Don't be afraid of anything. Don't think. Don't worry. Do it, and who cares what happens after that. Big risks=big rewards. Good luck to ya, next time. __________________ Don't be fooled by my username, I'm white.
Posts: 26,642