I can't be what I'm not. - Page 13

01-18-2003, 11:05 PM

Some people are jocks. Some people are preps. Some people are sluts. Some people are popular. Some people are all of the above, or a combination of one or more.

Some people are nerds.

I am a nerd.

Nerds don't go to parties. Those other people do.

I'm not those other people. I don't do what they do.

After covering my basketball games (which put the evening at 7pm) I went to the library and got on the computer until it closed at 8. Then I went to a mexican restaurant and ate dinner. It was then 9 pm. I was led to believe the party was starting at 9:30 or 10 pm. I drove over to her house and parked in a nearby lot. I waited. I felt sick. I went to the university center, and looked in the mirror. I looked like a nerd. I went back to the parking lot, ended up circling the house five times and parking again each time.

The last attempt I actually got out of the car. Guys I was so scared my entire body was screaming for me to get back in the car where it was safe. I got in there and left, and tried not to turn my head to look at that apartment building and the people outside it as I passed it.

Two songs played in the car as I began that trip home. Joe Walsh's "Life's been good to me" and AC/DC's "Hell's Bell's." Those are two of my favorite songs, and they are never played on the radio.

Those were my mp3s, calling me home.

I had a good cry on the way home, but I'm here now, where I belong. With you guys, my geforce 4 and no one else.

To thine own self be true.

**KcMizzou** · 01-19-2003, 02:11 AM

damn GC, I assumed you were asleep.

Logical · 01-19-2003, 02:13 AM

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Originally posted by KcMizzou
Phobia... you think GC is what he says he is? Doesn't some of this kinda make you think he's kinda beggin' for attention? I dunno.. I hope not. He doesn't seem to take any of the advice that's offered.... and he plays the "nerd" thing up WAY too much. I dunno, I have my doubts.

I must admit it seems like he is creating a psychosis for all of us to create attention and get responses. You may have something.

01-19-2003, 02:13 AM

No, I am still lamenting not going to that party. I hate myself big time right now.

I wish I could go back in time and drag my ass out of the car, through the parking lot, across the street, and into her apartment.

**KcMizzou** · 01-19-2003, 02:13 AM

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Originally posted by Adam KC

Okay maybe not drunk. But I definitely think doing a few shots to get a good buzz going beforehand could be a good thing.

Nothing will help somebody get past social apprehension like a little alcohol. It raises the "who gives a ****" factor a few notches and is probably his best shot at suddenly seeing himself as witty and likeable. (Which is often a self-fulfilling prophecy.)

I agree. It's one thing to be drunk.... but to take the "edge" off is something all together different.

01-19-2003, 02:14 AM

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Originally posted by KcMizzou

I agree. It's one thing to be drunk.... but to take the "edge" off is something all together different.

How many shots of whiskey would take the edge off? As you know I have some experience in taking shots of whiskey.

Logical · 01-19-2003, 02:16 AM

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Originally posted by gochiefs
I swear to you all I am not just doing this for attention. I need help...bad.

And Logical. I'm not gay. I watch straight pr0n, ok?

Depends on what you are paying attention to.

Seriously though how can you be college age and have this much problem relating to women if you do not have some sort of issue. I did not say the issue was that you wanted to sleep with men, heck you may be asexual for all I know. If you were 11 this might be understandable but as it is it seems you have a case of arrested maturity.

**KcMizzou** · 01-19-2003, 02:16 AM

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Originally posted by gochiefs

How many shots of whiskey would take the edge off? As you know I have some experience in taking shots of whiskey.

none... if you ARE for real.... I'd say a beer or two.

**wazu** · 01-19-2003, 02:16 AM

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Originally posted by gochiefs

How many shots of whiskey would take the edge off? As you know I have some experience in taking shots of whiskey.

Four should do it.

01-19-2003, 02:17 AM

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Originally posted by Logical

it seems you have a case of arrested maturity.

No shit, really? I had NO IDEA!

01-19-2003, 02:17 AM

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Originally posted by KcMizzou

none... if you ARE for real.... I'd say a beer or two.

I AM for real. Why do you doubt me?

**KcMizzou** · 01-19-2003, 02:18 AM

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Originally posted by Adam KC

Four should do it.

man... four shots of jack would have the poor guy actin' like austin powers.... only not as attractive.

01-19-2003, 02:20 AM

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Originally posted by KcMizzou

man... four shots of jack would have the poor guy actin' like austin powers.... only not as attractive.

It took 10 shots last time...and I remembered every minute of it.

01-19-2003, 02:21 AM

Guys I'm going to bed unless anyone wants to ask me anything...

**KcMizzou** · 01-19-2003, 02:21 AM

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Originally posted by gochiefs

I AM for real. Why do you doubt me?

Well... I've just never met anybody that had this problem. Actually.. that's not true.... EVERYONE has this problem, but I've never seen it this bad.

It's really not a big deal man... just go have fun. I don't know why that's so hard. (?)

01-19-2003, 02:22 AM

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Originally posted by KcMizzou

I don't know why that's so hard. (?)

Neither do I....that's the problem.

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