[DJay23]

This is a hindsight is 20/20 reflection. When I was in college I had this group project with 3 other people. We planned on a Friday night to get together at the house of the 2 female group members and work out what everyone was going to do to finish the project and start working on it.

That night my girlfriend at the time wanted me to come help her decorate a Christmas tree at her mom's singing club. So I was focused on getting back ASAP (I went to school a half an hour from where I lived).

One of the chicks in my group was a complete smokeshow. Thin but athletic build, dark hair and dark eyes, tight pooper and she filled her bra more than adequately. Pretty face, and she was a sweet person. Maybe I'm romanticizing her as this was over 25 years ago, but she was objectively a hot college WOMAN.

That night we had a planning session and started working on the project. All night long the hot girl was being pretty flirty with me, which I didn't realize at first because I wasn't like some kind of stud. I was attracted to her of course, but there's no way this girl didn't have a boyfriend plus I had a girlfriend I was happy with and had been with for a few years. Maybe this girl really liked skinny nerds though, because she was definitely leaving what I thought were bread crumbs.

When we had finished with everything and it was time to go, the other 2 n the group (a guy and girl couple) were going to go to the movies or a party, I can't remember which. They kept trying to get the hot girl to go and she kept saying that she wanted to stay home that night and kept looking at me. It must have been 3 or 4 times that she would look right at me and say, "No I'd rather stay home tonight." She also very noticeably was sang "Feel like making love" when I passed her on the staircase.

My animal instincts had me wanting to hang around and see what happened, but the rest of my brain said there is no way I could pursue this without getting caught somehow. I just was not a smooth liar. And my conscience was strong enough to know that I wouldn't be able to look my serious girlfriend in the eye ever again. Like how was I going to cheat on my girlfriend while she decorated a Christmas tree by herself.

So my big regret now, knowing how the relationship with that girlfriend ended up (with her cheating on me a few years later) and the lineup of women I've been with after that, I should have just done it. On the one hand it would have made me a cheater, which I can say now that I am not. On the other hand, my gut is that this girl wanted to mess around with me for some reason and I wish that I had that memory to think back on.