Condolences Duncan.
Only you could call a seemingly well thought out, well constructed articulate post rambling.
Thanks for the colonoscopy discussion. When we were in college, my buddy's mom got colon cancer in her mid 40s and it freaked me the **** out. So it's on the radar.
You seem really well adjusted so my guess is you are handling everything with appropriate state of mind. My only recommendation is let yourself grieve. Sometimes as men we feel like it's inappropriate to do so. But you can't grieve without allowing yourself to do it.
Don't go all Roman Roy on us
Thanks for sharing.