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Originally Posted by ChiefGator
You are not alone man.. You have the love of your amazing family, your great friends, and lastly even this KC Chiefs bulletin board.
You are not alone, man. Try not to give into those feelings of depressions that you have worked so hard to stave off, even if it is somewhat natural to feel that way.
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Thank you very much, and I know I am not alone, like stranded by myself on a desert island. It's just that Dave, Sac, and Sheila, and I, it felt like a quartet I was part of and now three are gone. They knew firsthand much of what I was going through, and vice versa, so there was that ability to relate that we shared. I am still determined to kill the cancer within me, and I will, because it dies no matter if I do or don't. I'm just taking Sheila's death hard because her life was so damned unfair. Her louse of a husband assumed that since the doctors gave her a 15% chance to live, that she would die, so he hooked up with his current gf while Sheila was undergoing very intense surgeries and treatments.
She used to be a physically striking woman, red hair, blue eyes, 5'11" and all. The stomach cancer ruined all that, and her hair never grew back well, so she shaved her head and wore wigs. When I met her and she confided in me that she was so happy to be able to eat mashed potatoes, and the extra carbs brought her UP to 93 pounds, I was amazed at this woman's strength and what she was able to take joy in. A few months back, she talked about how she and her daughter went out into the forest and tossed her suicide pills into a river. She seemed to be improving, but then her kidneys started to go, and she had to have a hospice nurse again, which she hated having to rely on.
I never met her face to face and she wouldn't post photos of herself on her FB page, but she meant a lot to me, and I hope she knew that. I hope she was greeted in Heaven with a 72 oz. ribeye, a BAKED potato, and all sorts of crunchy stuff that she'd have to chew. That amazing woman sure had to deal with a lot of horrible things here on Earth.